2006-11-26

sleep, touching and crushes(??)

So, I took the advice of a friend. I bought the 3mg melatonin strips (thats not alot?) and I took the melatonin and I slept. FOR 24 DAMN HOURS. yes, I fell asleep after being up for 31 hours and continued to sleep until 10:30.There is something wrong with that picture. I can't get that day back friend....jeez. He didn't warn me that I would lose whole pages of existence in the process.
Although, he said if it works then I am low on melatonin....I don't think that can be operated on...(ha)Still, I think I will give away these strips for free to small hyperactive children. haha, no I won't but I won't be using them again. I think I'd rather go a more natural route like staring at the celing.
I was also having a conversation with someone on the art of touch. Normally, we are afraid of touch(well not us, but alot of people). We personally refrain from touching people because we are unsure of their boundaries(we don't have many). I personally have no qualms about being touched, in a warming sense, I would rather a hand on me somewhere (ok, not there, money up front baby!). Even when I am talking to someone on the street and they are speaking of irrelevant things and when I walk away they touch my shoulder or something I don't mind. I like it even. I think its kind of sad that we all can't sit on each other in a tiny room crammed with 50 people(without the ecstacy...If you've been in a room like that with ecstacy then you know what I am saying) and not assume its sexual harrasment, or that cheating bastard or you make me uncomfortable. The only thing that really makes me uncomfortable is when YOU are uncomfortable. Which is why I don't cuddle with random people at the bus stops and in libraries, at work, in the grocery store frozen food aisle (it's cold in there) etc.etc.
I still haven't asked the man at the friendly neighbourhood convenient store his name. I don't think I care enough. He always keeps me for 15 mins-ish telling me the funniest stories but yesterday was awesome because he gave me 7 long long clippings from this beautiful purple plant he has in the store (we were on the topic of plants). I should take him some clippings of my plants after I pot them for him. I will do this for sure. It's only fair.
Although I slept the day away. And I did miss my reruns of cosby show and the DOC of the week but thats ok because they will be on again sometime around 3am and 4am.
I am sure that day was a good day. I've only been begging for sleep for a decade now.
Just deserts. I shouldn't complain.

...on a side note this song makes me smile...

I've gotta big big big big heart beat, yeah
I think you are the sweetest thing
I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud
I've been having good days
Think we are the right age
To start our own peculiar ways
with good and friendly homes
You get me freaked freaked freaked on preakness
Never met a girl that likes to drink with horses
Knows her Chinese ballet
Must admit you smell like fruity nuts and good grains
When you show my purple gaze
A thing or two at night
Make me sick sick sick to kiss you
and I think that I woud vomit
But I'll do that on mondays I dont have to work anyways
I like it when I bump you an accident's a truth gate
I'm humbled in your pretty lense
I'll hold you dont you go
Sometimes you're quiet and sometimes I'm quiet. Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm talkative and sometimes you're not talkative, I know....
Well I'd like to spread your perfume around the old apartment
Could we live together and agree on the same wares?
A trapeze is a bird cage even if its empty and definitely fits the room
And we would too
And my dear dear dear khalana
I talk too much about you
Their ears are getting tired of me singing all the night through
Lets just talk together
You and me and me and you
And if there's nothing much to say
Well, silence is a bore
I've gotta big big big big heart beat,
yeah I think you are the sweetest thing
I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud
I've been having good days
Think we are the right age
To start our own peculiar ways
With good and friendly homes
Sometimes you're quiet, and sometimes I'm quiet, hallelujah
Sometimes I'm talkative, and sometimes you're not talkative, i know....
Sometimes you hear me when others they can't hear me. Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm naked and thank god sometimes you're naked.
Well, hello..... Can I tell you that you are the purple in me?
Can I call you just to hear you, would you care?
When I saw you put your purple finger on me
There's a feelin' in your bottle
Found your bottle, found your heart
Gives a feeling from your bottled little part
Got a crush high
Thought I crushed all I could
Crushed all I can then I touched your hand
Crush high Dont want it to stop
'Cause stories of your brother make my crush high pop
And you couldn't really know, cause it's in my toes
And sometimes I wonder where that crush high go
Crush high then I go and take some pills
Cause I can't do all of my dos and still feel ill
-animal collective/the purple bottle

bye bye bye bye bye bye bye goodnight.

Katrina at 10:26 PM

2006-11-26

sleep, touching and crushes(??)

So, I took the advice of a friend. I bought the 3mg melatonin strips (thats not alot?) and I took the melatonin and I slept. FOR 24 DAMN HOURS. yes, I fell asleep after being up for 31 hours and continued to sleep until 10:30.There is something wrong with that picture. I can't get that day back friend....jeez. He didn't warn me that I would lose whole pages of existence in the process.
Although, he said if it works then I am low on melatonin....I don't think that can be operated on...(ha)Still, I think I will give away these strips for free to small hyperactive children. haha, no I won't but I won't be using them again. I think I'd rather go a more natural route like staring at the celing.
I was also having a conversation with someone on the art of touch. Normally, we are afraid of touch(well not us, but alot of people). We personally refrain from touching people because we are unsure of their boundaries(we don't have many). I personally have no qualms about being touched, in a warming sense, I would rather a hand on me somewhere (ok, not there, money up front baby!). Even when I am talking to someone on the street and they are speaking of irrelevant things and when I walk away they touch my shoulder or something I don't mind. I like it even. I think its kind of sad that we all can't sit on each other in a tiny room crammed with 50 people(without the ecstacy...If you've been in a room like that with ecstacy then you know what I am saying) and not assume its sexual harrasment, or that cheating bastard or you make me uncomfortable. The only thing that really makes me uncomfortable is when YOU are uncomfortable. Which is why I don't cuddle with random people at the bus stops and in libraries, at work, in the grocery store frozen food aisle (it's cold in there) etc.etc.
I still haven't asked the man at the friendly neighbourhood convenient store his name. I don't think I care enough. He always keeps me for 15 mins-ish telling me the funniest stories but yesterday was awesome because he gave me 7 long long clippings from this beautiful purple plant he has in the store (we were on the topic of plants). I should take him some clippings of my plants after I pot them for him. I will do this for sure. It's only fair.
Although I slept the day away. And I did miss my reruns of cosby show and the DOC of the week but thats ok because they will be on again sometime around 3am and 4am.
I am sure that day was a good day. I've only been begging for sleep for a decade now.
Just deserts. I shouldn't complain.

...on a side note this song makes me smile...

I've gotta big big big big heart beat, yeah
I think you are the sweetest thing
I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud
I've been having good days
Think we are the right age
To start our own peculiar ways
with good and friendly homes
You get me freaked freaked freaked on preakness
Never met a girl that likes to drink with horses
Knows her Chinese ballet
Must admit you smell like fruity nuts and good grains
When you show my purple gaze
A thing or two at night
Make me sick sick sick to kiss you
and I think that I woud vomit
But I'll do that on mondays I dont have to work anyways
I like it when I bump you an accident's a truth gate
I'm humbled in your pretty lense
I'll hold you dont you go
Sometimes you're quiet and sometimes I'm quiet. Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm talkative and sometimes you're not talkative, I know....
Well I'd like to spread your perfume around the old apartment
Could we live together and agree on the same wares?
A trapeze is a bird cage even if its empty and definitely fits the room
And we would too
And my dear dear dear khalana
I talk too much about you
Their ears are getting tired of me singing all the night through
Lets just talk together
You and me and me and you
And if there's nothing much to say
Well, silence is a bore
I've gotta big big big big heart beat,
yeah I think you are the sweetest thing
I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud
I've been having good days
Think we are the right age
To start our own peculiar ways
With good and friendly homes
Sometimes you're quiet, and sometimes I'm quiet, hallelujah
Sometimes I'm talkative, and sometimes you're not talkative, i know....
Sometimes you hear me when others they can't hear me. Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm naked and thank god sometimes you're naked.
Well, hello..... Can I tell you that you are the purple in me?
Can I call you just to hear you, would you care?
When I saw you put your purple finger on me
There's a feelin' in your bottle
Found your bottle, found your heart
Gives a feeling from your bottled little part
Got a crush high
Thought I crushed all I could
Crushed all I can then I touched your hand
Crush high Dont want it to stop
'Cause stories of your brother make my crush high pop
And you couldn't really know, cause it's in my toes
And sometimes I wonder where that crush high go
Crush high then I go and take some pills
Cause I can't do all of my dos and still feel ill
-animal collective/the purple bottle

bye bye bye bye bye bye bye goodnight.

Katrina at 10:26 PM