2007-01-27

Must every emotion involve a disturbance?

So, this is from marvin minskys book, 'the emotion machine':

'For, ‘look at’ suppresses your questions about the systems that choose how you move your eyes. Then, ‘object’ diverts you from asking how your visual systems partition a scene into various patches of color and texture—and then assign them to different ‘things.’ Similarly, ‘see what it is’ serves to keep you from asking how that recognition relates to other things that you’ve seen in the past.'

The whole book is fairly easy stuff to comprehend. I call that whole paragraph labelling. It kills the jargon. Jargon is a little hard to absorb for some people. One word is good for me. This is the harder part though because I am trying not to label things but in order to not think about things so much I like to label. In order to explain how I feel about things I also like to label. It makes it easier to explain myself. Rather than going off on a tangent explaining to you every little detail of how I came to a conclusion. I guess what I want to do is label everything for what it is at that moment instead of labelling something to another thing from the past.

I've said label so much it sounds and looks funny.

on coming to a conclusion....

'Reaction: Joan reacted quickly to that sound.
Identification: She recognized it as being a sound.
Characterization: She classified it as the sound of a car.
Attention: She noticed certain things rather than others.
Imagining: She envisioned two or more possible futures.
Indecision: She wondered whether to cross or retreat.
Decision: She chose one of several alternative actions.
Recollection: She retrieved descriptions of prior events.
Reconsideration: Later she reconsidered this choice.
Selection: She selected a way to choose among options.
Apprehension: She was uneasy about arriving late.
Planning: She constructed a multi-step action-plan.
Embodiment: She tried to describe her body's condition.
Emotion: She changed major parts of her mental state.
Representation: She interconnected a set of descriptions.
Language: She constructed several verbal expressions.
Narration: She heard them as dialogs in her mind.
Anticipation: She expected certain future condition.
Intention: She changed some of her goals’ priorities.
Reasoning: She made various kinds of inferences.
Reflection: She thought about what she’s recently done.Self-Reflection: She reflected on her recent thoughts.
Empathy: She imagined other persons’ thoughts.
Moral Reflection: She evaluated what she has done.
Self-Imaging: She made and used models of herself.
Self-Awareness: She characterized her mental condition.
Sense of Identity: She regarded herself as an entity.'

If in order to un-condition (good luck) myself. Become in every sense of the word a 'free thinker'. I would have to stop doing all of that. It happens so fast how the hell am I supposed to not? I don't even notice it happening. Mind you, some of those things above I am seriously hoping I don't do but I suppose I can't be silly and place myself above anything. Including poop.

The book isn't that intriguing really, but it did put something into perspective for me. He tends to put feelings on the back shelf and explain them through logic and I can't stand that. He did ask a good question though and that was 'must every emotion involve a disturbance'.
I think I now see that the reason I feel so much about everything could actually be because I am constantly disturbed by things around me. I don't see much that revolves around me as making too much sense besides order in chaos. I do tend to let it plague me.

It reminded me of being very young. I have only come across one person who remembers this sort of incident and feels the same way. So, if you don't understand then don't worry about it. I rememeber the first boy who had a crush on me when I was probably about 4 or 5. We were playing in the park near my house and he pushed me on the slide and kept trying to kiss me. I remember feeling so sick and nervous and utterly out of my element. I could not describe the feeling and to this day I remember it clearly and I still can't describe the feeling. It never happened again after that. I do know that after that moment I began questioning sex and life in general. Even if only internally for a long time. So this question I do want to look into because I am wondering if the reason why feel so much is due to generally having a life of disturbances. Learning from experience and watching others experience terrible things rather than books. Actually having to watch others pain and my own pain and over thinking due to such things. Trying to figure out how to make things 'better' all the time. Thinking things used to be so bad all the time.
Anyways, I really love that question and I will be watching what happens within myself.
I've asked it, I am sure I will live out the answer.

I need therapy.

Katrina at 3:13 PM

2007-01-27

Must every emotion involve a disturbance?

So, this is from marvin minskys book, 'the emotion machine':

'For, ‘look at’ suppresses your questions about the systems that choose how you move your eyes. Then, ‘object’ diverts you from asking how your visual systems partition a scene into various patches of color and texture—and then assign them to different ‘things.’ Similarly, ‘see what it is’ serves to keep you from asking how that recognition relates to other things that you’ve seen in the past.'

The whole book is fairly easy stuff to comprehend. I call that whole paragraph labelling. It kills the jargon. Jargon is a little hard to absorb for some people. One word is good for me. This is the harder part though because I am trying not to label things but in order to not think about things so much I like to label. In order to explain how I feel about things I also like to label. It makes it easier to explain myself. Rather than going off on a tangent explaining to you every little detail of how I came to a conclusion. I guess what I want to do is label everything for what it is at that moment instead of labelling something to another thing from the past.

I've said label so much it sounds and looks funny.

on coming to a conclusion....

'Reaction: Joan reacted quickly to that sound.
Identification: She recognized it as being a sound.
Characterization: She classified it as the sound of a car.
Attention: She noticed certain things rather than others.
Imagining: She envisioned two or more possible futures.
Indecision: She wondered whether to cross or retreat.
Decision: She chose one of several alternative actions.
Recollection: She retrieved descriptions of prior events.
Reconsideration: Later she reconsidered this choice.
Selection: She selected a way to choose among options.
Apprehension: She was uneasy about arriving late.
Planning: She constructed a multi-step action-plan.
Embodiment: She tried to describe her body's condition.
Emotion: She changed major parts of her mental state.
Representation: She interconnected a set of descriptions.
Language: She constructed several verbal expressions.
Narration: She heard them as dialogs in her mind.
Anticipation: She expected certain future condition.
Intention: She changed some of her goals’ priorities.
Reasoning: She made various kinds of inferences.
Reflection: She thought about what she’s recently done.Self-Reflection: She reflected on her recent thoughts.
Empathy: She imagined other persons’ thoughts.
Moral Reflection: She evaluated what she has done.
Self-Imaging: She made and used models of herself.
Self-Awareness: She characterized her mental condition.
Sense of Identity: She regarded herself as an entity.'

If in order to un-condition (good luck) myself. Become in every sense of the word a 'free thinker'. I would have to stop doing all of that. It happens so fast how the hell am I supposed to not? I don't even notice it happening. Mind you, some of those things above I am seriously hoping I don't do but I suppose I can't be silly and place myself above anything. Including poop.

The book isn't that intriguing really, but it did put something into perspective for me. He tends to put feelings on the back shelf and explain them through logic and I can't stand that. He did ask a good question though and that was 'must every emotion involve a disturbance'.
I think I now see that the reason I feel so much about everything could actually be because I am constantly disturbed by things around me. I don't see much that revolves around me as making too much sense besides order in chaos. I do tend to let it plague me.

It reminded me of being very young. I have only come across one person who remembers this sort of incident and feels the same way. So, if you don't understand then don't worry about it. I rememeber the first boy who had a crush on me when I was probably about 4 or 5. We were playing in the park near my house and he pushed me on the slide and kept trying to kiss me. I remember feeling so sick and nervous and utterly out of my element. I could not describe the feeling and to this day I remember it clearly and I still can't describe the feeling. It never happened again after that. I do know that after that moment I began questioning sex and life in general. Even if only internally for a long time. So this question I do want to look into because I am wondering if the reason why feel so much is due to generally having a life of disturbances. Learning from experience and watching others experience terrible things rather than books. Actually having to watch others pain and my own pain and over thinking due to such things. Trying to figure out how to make things 'better' all the time. Thinking things used to be so bad all the time.
Anyways, I really love that question and I will be watching what happens within myself.
I've asked it, I am sure I will live out the answer.

I need therapy.

Katrina at 3:13 PM