2006-12-28

vitamins and tampons

Thus enters my personal point of view when it comes to growth in relationships. Now, currently I am talking with a friend on MSN. We got to chatting about a girl we both know and the story he told me reminded me of playing barbies with this girl amy in grade 4. In the daytime, after school, we would bust out our plethura of barbies and kens and we would make them make love and we would have dinners and go for rides in the pink corvette. Do barbies hair and..well...ken was boring his hair was always plastic. You could only dress him and undress him (typical relationship...tell your other what they can and cant do and then fuck them to make up for it all...guaranteed to work or....half your assets back). So, anyways, In the night time, on about 4 occasions that I can recall, Amy would come banging on my door screaming and crying that her mother and father were fighting and what not....police....tears...dad comes back the next day....mom and him make whoopy and its off to the races again. Luck of the draw really...if no. 6 wins someone is getting knocked the hell out.
Now, I personally can see the strange workings of this whole situation. I think Virginity has alot to do with it. Or even more, lack of heartbreak romantically. I was a virgin once. I remember what it's like. We are human aliens. I would say all of us besides monks and nuns and the pope would say sex is a huge benefactor in most relationships. Hell, I was making ken screw barbie before I knew what a penis looked like. obviously something has been mapped out here.
Young, I think it leads to believing that things should just be a certain way and if anything goes off of that track its grounds for punishment. I should be angry with you for things I am doing to myself. I choose to stay with YOU so why should I be punished for doing so? As if, we are doinf that person a favour.
Ugly ego.
Anyways, his story summed up as this, girl meets boy as a young girl, girl waits for boy, boy hasn't been seen in years and shows no signs of returning, girl waits for boy.
I don't know why she waited on guy....I guess she'll die.
I see this alot more in women as well. Women, I think, are far more likely to work through the acts like these. We easily believe that if we are told someone wants us just once I think we feel that means forever. Naturally, giving up our whole lives to be with that person. (I was an idealistic virgin once)
I don't personally believe that at all. I just see it alot. I watch girl and boy find silly reasons to argue and still stay together. I wonder if people play jokes on me because its so silly for me to watch personally. I couldn't imagine now looking at someone and saying 'listen, I am going to find as many reasons as I can to fight with you, and while we fight I will think of a million loopholes to put myself through so you feel bad for leaving and ultimately don't'. Which is what I think maybe people should just say and get it over with instead of making a game out of it.
Maybe, I just think that we should be a little more confident in our efforts to love the people around us. Maybe, if we weren't insecure all the time we would find more reasons to love and forget the reasons we used to have for not.

I am so bad at pretending I know about what goes on around me.

Really, I am just glad I bought vitamins and tampons today. I needed them.

Katrina at 7:28 PM

2006-12-28

vitamins and tampons

Thus enters my personal point of view when it comes to growth in relationships. Now, currently I am talking with a friend on MSN. We got to chatting about a girl we both know and the story he told me reminded me of playing barbies with this girl amy in grade 4. In the daytime, after school, we would bust out our plethura of barbies and kens and we would make them make love and we would have dinners and go for rides in the pink corvette. Do barbies hair and..well...ken was boring his hair was always plastic. You could only dress him and undress him (typical relationship...tell your other what they can and cant do and then fuck them to make up for it all...guaranteed to work or....half your assets back). So, anyways, In the night time, on about 4 occasions that I can recall, Amy would come banging on my door screaming and crying that her mother and father were fighting and what not....police....tears...dad comes back the next day....mom and him make whoopy and its off to the races again. Luck of the draw really...if no. 6 wins someone is getting knocked the hell out.
Now, I personally can see the strange workings of this whole situation. I think Virginity has alot to do with it. Or even more, lack of heartbreak romantically. I was a virgin once. I remember what it's like. We are human aliens. I would say all of us besides monks and nuns and the pope would say sex is a huge benefactor in most relationships. Hell, I was making ken screw barbie before I knew what a penis looked like. obviously something has been mapped out here.
Young, I think it leads to believing that things should just be a certain way and if anything goes off of that track its grounds for punishment. I should be angry with you for things I am doing to myself. I choose to stay with YOU so why should I be punished for doing so? As if, we are doinf that person a favour.
Ugly ego.
Anyways, his story summed up as this, girl meets boy as a young girl, girl waits for boy, boy hasn't been seen in years and shows no signs of returning, girl waits for boy.
I don't know why she waited on guy....I guess she'll die.
I see this alot more in women as well. Women, I think, are far more likely to work through the acts like these. We easily believe that if we are told someone wants us just once I think we feel that means forever. Naturally, giving up our whole lives to be with that person. (I was an idealistic virgin once)
I don't personally believe that at all. I just see it alot. I watch girl and boy find silly reasons to argue and still stay together. I wonder if people play jokes on me because its so silly for me to watch personally. I couldn't imagine now looking at someone and saying 'listen, I am going to find as many reasons as I can to fight with you, and while we fight I will think of a million loopholes to put myself through so you feel bad for leaving and ultimately don't'. Which is what I think maybe people should just say and get it over with instead of making a game out of it.
Maybe, I just think that we should be a little more confident in our efforts to love the people around us. Maybe, if we weren't insecure all the time we would find more reasons to love and forget the reasons we used to have for not.

I am so bad at pretending I know about what goes on around me.

Really, I am just glad I bought vitamins and tampons today. I needed them.

Katrina at 7:28 PM