2006-11-15

mutant walker

'ill be okay
for another day
maybe more
maybe im at the bottom
this time'
-jen slocumb.

I love those feelings you get that place you somewhere else for a moment. Not in the past present or future. just place you somewhere in your head you've always gone but never been.

I remember when i first heard that song. I must say I remember it was dec.23.03. I saw marthas trouble live at the aquarius lounge. Chris took me. It was my christmas present. Nicest thing he ever did. He was never a friend to say or do nice things outwardly. He always expected you to read between the lines. so it was really weird. I don't see Chris ever anymore. I miss him. He'd be happy to know that I am so good at reading between the lines now. It's my fault I have to miss him. Nobodys perfect. Don't expect me to be. Also, i would like to mention that the time between that very date and now is so completely not as much time as it sounds like. 3 years and it feels like 4 months. maybe. Time isn't real. I have no idea what is anymore. I also feel like I am going to wake up tomorrow and I'll be 45 and I really don't want to feel on that morning like I do right this second.
I need some things.
I need to get rid of these feet that walk backwards.
I don't know how to do that.
I don't know how to do alot of things.

Katrina at 1:31 AM

2006-11-15

mutant walker

'ill be okay
for another day
maybe more
maybe im at the bottom
this time'
-jen slocumb.

I love those feelings you get that place you somewhere else for a moment. Not in the past present or future. just place you somewhere in your head you've always gone but never been.

I remember when i first heard that song. I must say I remember it was dec.23.03. I saw marthas trouble live at the aquarius lounge. Chris took me. It was my christmas present. Nicest thing he ever did. He was never a friend to say or do nice things outwardly. He always expected you to read between the lines. so it was really weird. I don't see Chris ever anymore. I miss him. He'd be happy to know that I am so good at reading between the lines now. It's my fault I have to miss him. Nobodys perfect. Don't expect me to be. Also, i would like to mention that the time between that very date and now is so completely not as much time as it sounds like. 3 years and it feels like 4 months. maybe. Time isn't real. I have no idea what is anymore. I also feel like I am going to wake up tomorrow and I'll be 45 and I really don't want to feel on that morning like I do right this second.
I need some things.
I need to get rid of these feet that walk backwards.
I don't know how to do that.
I don't know how to do alot of things.

Katrina at 1:31 AM