2007-01-01
what am I... still learning...eternally.
people. they steal smiles. from other peoples happiness.because almost none of us are truely happy..
so we feed off of others happiness
and smile fakely.
mostly if we can't relate
We like to pretend we can.
I wonder why we pretend we can't relate?
We like to think we are all the same and that we can see the person we are talking to for who they really are. Really, we've never seen anything behind their eyes. We know nothing behind their projecting personas. it's all such guesses. Guesses is my thing right now. about 6 months ago my thing was relations. I was obsessed with relating to each and every one of you. Now I have moved passed it in order to see that it is about perspective. I can't relate unless I agree with in your perspective. don't get me wrong, I love you. All of you. I think you are beautiful. I think you are 10 billion times more amusing than myself. I truely do love you.i think your biography is 10 billion times more amazing than mine. I just think that we should all stop trying.
We should all be out perplexing amazing selves. We should be each other and nothing simultaneously.
yazan,
I wish I could have brought you with me tonight. I made a 20 dollar tip just for letting some guy kiss my cheek....you could have gotten some. mwah!
i hung out with....matt.....roman....tova.....rang in the new years with an old man and roman....I have no idea who either of them are....
I feel more sad then I can possibly explain right now...
i hav ebooze I hope on the 1st someone will get tanked with me and help me feel better ( guess thats what it takes....I know you can talk me out of it)
Love, Katrina
Katrina at 4:39 AM