2006-08-18

abstract.

If you haven't seen waking life. See it.

Oh the time it is a changing. Bob dylan.

Some things about me. Abstract at best.

I like to dance. I like hockey. I am a sucker for charm. I am so insanely placed in awe regarding my experiences. I never thought life would turn out the way it has. I wish my memory was better. I wish I could speak my mind, in the most literal sense. I long for someone I can speak my mind to. When I can sit with someone and feel like while talking I am only thinking out loud. I want to buy you things that you'll love and hate. I want you to show me something I've never seen. Or if I have seen it I want to see it differently when you show it to me and explain your thoughts about it. I have seen people so saddened with life. I have been so saddened by life. I contradict myself constantly because I have no idea what's going on around me and I don't pretend to try and understand anything besides what I feel at that exact moment. I want to meet someone named polly. I had a friend named Amy. She is long in the past but not forgotten. I want someone to throw a surprise party for me. I want to inspire. I want to be inspired. I want to pick up a gun and aim it at my enemy and put it down because it doesn't look good on me. I want to garbage pick and find something wonderful. Then get someone else to do the same thing with the same outcome. I wear clashing outfits. I lie if I think it will hurt you. I am forgotten to some. I am loved by many. I don't know much about love. I stepped on a hibatchi when I was 4 and had 2nd degree burns on the bottom of my foot. I have a mother that was an addict. I enjoy her stories. I am addicted to coffee. I have chewed both wool and tinfoil. Both made me cringe so I did it again. I used to call quest and have old men come to the house next door and my friends and I would laugh. I was so drunk I pee'd my pants, while I was vomiting, in some guys yard, then passed on my cell phone and my friend took a picture. I ruined that film. I ruin alot of things. I am obsessed with procrastination. I am less intelligent than I seem. I like to be lazy then bitch about my weight. I am alone almost all the time. I long to be surrounded in people and just listen to them talk. I used to be surrounded. I escaped because it was tiring. I never say never anymore. I wonder what I am doing here. I wonder why I met you. I wonder why I can't be honest when I just want to scream out things you probably feel as well. I feel like I am going somewhere big. I hate the idea of success. I want to be wealthy. I want a nice car. I want to live modestly with long hair and not wear deoderant. I don't want to smell. I like the feeling I have after a bath. I like to dream. I sleep only to dream. Most of the time I wish you were here.
I don't regret anything except the fact that I lived a life in which I lied to myself, for far too long. You probably know more about me than I do. Someone should send me snail mail. with pictures.

I feel anxious to be a part of humanity. As disturbing as I find it.

Katrina at 12:07 AM

2006-08-18

abstract.

If you haven't seen waking life. See it.

Oh the time it is a changing. Bob dylan.

Some things about me. Abstract at best.

I like to dance. I like hockey. I am a sucker for charm. I am so insanely placed in awe regarding my experiences. I never thought life would turn out the way it has. I wish my memory was better. I wish I could speak my mind, in the most literal sense. I long for someone I can speak my mind to. When I can sit with someone and feel like while talking I am only thinking out loud. I want to buy you things that you'll love and hate. I want you to show me something I've never seen. Or if I have seen it I want to see it differently when you show it to me and explain your thoughts about it. I have seen people so saddened with life. I have been so saddened by life. I contradict myself constantly because I have no idea what's going on around me and I don't pretend to try and understand anything besides what I feel at that exact moment. I want to meet someone named polly. I had a friend named Amy. She is long in the past but not forgotten. I want someone to throw a surprise party for me. I want to inspire. I want to be inspired. I want to pick up a gun and aim it at my enemy and put it down because it doesn't look good on me. I want to garbage pick and find something wonderful. Then get someone else to do the same thing with the same outcome. I wear clashing outfits. I lie if I think it will hurt you. I am forgotten to some. I am loved by many. I don't know much about love. I stepped on a hibatchi when I was 4 and had 2nd degree burns on the bottom of my foot. I have a mother that was an addict. I enjoy her stories. I am addicted to coffee. I have chewed both wool and tinfoil. Both made me cringe so I did it again. I used to call quest and have old men come to the house next door and my friends and I would laugh. I was so drunk I pee'd my pants, while I was vomiting, in some guys yard, then passed on my cell phone and my friend took a picture. I ruined that film. I ruin alot of things. I am obsessed with procrastination. I am less intelligent than I seem. I like to be lazy then bitch about my weight. I am alone almost all the time. I long to be surrounded in people and just listen to them talk. I used to be surrounded. I escaped because it was tiring. I never say never anymore. I wonder what I am doing here. I wonder why I met you. I wonder why I can't be honest when I just want to scream out things you probably feel as well. I feel like I am going somewhere big. I hate the idea of success. I want to be wealthy. I want a nice car. I want to live modestly with long hair and not wear deoderant. I don't want to smell. I like the feeling I have after a bath. I like to dream. I sleep only to dream. Most of the time I wish you were here.
I don't regret anything except the fact that I lived a life in which I lied to myself, for far too long. You probably know more about me than I do. Someone should send me snail mail. with pictures.

I feel anxious to be a part of humanity. As disturbing as I find it.

Katrina at 12:07 AM