2006-09-13

I was next in line that meant I was invisible

Two things I want you to remember.
conjunctivitis of the soul is a good thing.
if you are captain you can sail to the stars.

I had a cold chill of nostalgia today. It kind of made me feel sick. I was watching derrick and rosie talk before we left for home after work today. They have been married for 14 years. 3 kids. Now most of you know I was with mike for 6 and some years. Devastating in hindsight. Anyways, I remember the look and mannerisms of mike when he would say things condescending-like in hopes to prove a point and miss starting a war in its place. Sick looking. The evil chuckle while he spoke as if he wasnt serious enough to care but this is how to repress. Let's all pretend everythings ok. Which is to me exactly what they reminded me of. My/his energy being wasted into beating around the bush and forgetting that perhaps the problem isn't with the other person at all. When every word that leaves your tongue and enters your ear is negative, brutal to the inside. I never noticed. I just played the hands. The issues I must have left him with are probably tragic seeing as I'm constantly running from those types of pictures now. I don't even think I should leave myself with so much credit. Credit or Blame?
I'm the first to admit I don't know jack. I surely didn't at 16. I suppose in asking the questions I lived into the answers.
Grow. Just be sure to notice when you are covered in air tight shrink wrap and can't breathe Some things aren't as obvious as they seem later.

I have received news it is roadtrip time on the 28th. This time its New brunswick. Should be terribly amusing. As are all roadtrips. I remember when Scott and I found balls falls on our Niagara falls and surrounding area roadtrip. That was such a nice place for a doobie and a conversation.

The roadtrip inside is scenery and pedestrians. Never the person driving. She's despensible and invisible. This means she still gets hurt.

Katrina at 1:47 AM

2006-09-13

I was next in line that meant I was invisible

Two things I want you to remember.
conjunctivitis of the soul is a good thing.
if you are captain you can sail to the stars.

I had a cold chill of nostalgia today. It kind of made me feel sick. I was watching derrick and rosie talk before we left for home after work today. They have been married for 14 years. 3 kids. Now most of you know I was with mike for 6 and some years. Devastating in hindsight. Anyways, I remember the look and mannerisms of mike when he would say things condescending-like in hopes to prove a point and miss starting a war in its place. Sick looking. The evil chuckle while he spoke as if he wasnt serious enough to care but this is how to repress. Let's all pretend everythings ok. Which is to me exactly what they reminded me of. My/his energy being wasted into beating around the bush and forgetting that perhaps the problem isn't with the other person at all. When every word that leaves your tongue and enters your ear is negative, brutal to the inside. I never noticed. I just played the hands. The issues I must have left him with are probably tragic seeing as I'm constantly running from those types of pictures now. I don't even think I should leave myself with so much credit. Credit or Blame?
I'm the first to admit I don't know jack. I surely didn't at 16. I suppose in asking the questions I lived into the answers.
Grow. Just be sure to notice when you are covered in air tight shrink wrap and can't breathe Some things aren't as obvious as they seem later.

I have received news it is roadtrip time on the 28th. This time its New brunswick. Should be terribly amusing. As are all roadtrips. I remember when Scott and I found balls falls on our Niagara falls and surrounding area roadtrip. That was such a nice place for a doobie and a conversation.

The roadtrip inside is scenery and pedestrians. Never the person driving. She's despensible and invisible. This means she still gets hurt.

Katrina at 1:47 AM